One of the blessings (and curses, let's be honest) of ADHD is the ability to hyperfocus. I've had this website in maintenance mode for a year. So what the hell have I been doing with it for the past year? Working, fighting my brain, or a combination of the two. Task paralysis is a thing, y'all. It's annoying as hell too.

What in the hell happened now? Why, Darunia, are you working on this thing when the domain name is set to expire in a couple of weeks? Let me try to explain this.

Back in May, I lost my job due to my health. It's okay; I was planning on making moves out of there literally because of this reason (and it was a very uncomfortable environment as a trans person). It just happened when I didn't have savings. Cool, cool. Not salty at all. After a couple of weeks though, I took a mental note of everything that I can do now that I have the time at home to do it. Yes, I was looking for a new job. Yes, I still am looking for a new job even part-time at this point so that we're not homeless. Until then, I needed to find an outlet outside of perpetually job hunting because the whole bullshit about spending 8 hours throwing out resumes into the void for 5 days a week? Completely ineffective.

So hey, maybe if I work on this website, I can start bringing attention to something that I can do that won't completely decimate my body and mind. That meant actually getting this old thing up and working on it.

Not gonna lie, it was pretty much ready by Monday, but then I became medicated and that was a wash after 2 hours. Then I wanted to fix one particular thing that took me way too long to figure out (phew CSS, man) and I didn't get it all done until yesterday. I figured might as well wait until Friday the 13th to take this out of maintenance mode and show it to yall.

I also wanted to do this for myself. Video editing has become a new thing that I fell in love with. I'm tired of hiding what skills I do have because my brain wants to play the impostor syndrome song. You know the one:

🎵Ain't no one coming to see your asssss🎵

I mean, will this bring me some folks who would want to hire me to edit their videos? Will I be able to make this a self-employment endeavor that actually sticks? Will the impostor syndrome song still be an earworm? Time will tell, but until then, here's to new beginnings.